Today is the first day of fall semester at my university, and I’m officially an undergraduate junior. Time truly flies. Summer is gone, somehow, and I miss it already.
Instead of writing for publications I previously wrote for – or even writing for my blog – I took a well-needed break this summer. I worked at my internship, I spent time with family, and I went on an incredible cruise last week to Port Canaveral (Florida), Great Stirrup Cay (Bahamas), and Nassau (Bahamas). I spent a lot of time with my parents and sisters where we talked about life, reminisced memories of the past, and lived in the moment.
During this trip, we weren’t glued to technology or the internet. Instead, we connected through conversation. We took pictures and made memories in the spur of the moment. We had a private family photoshoot (pictures to come soon). We laughed, we got into arguments, we ate, and then when the vacation ended, we rode a limo home – back to reality.
Vacation and summer both began and ended quicker than I could realize, and this school year will presumably follow the same path. Although I am worried about so many aspects of this year (like maintaining a high GPA, making friends, surviving partial dorming), I know that I will get through this year. And before I know it, it’ll be winter break….then Spring semester, followed by summer once again.
I’m realizing how quick life flies by, how short life is. We spend time worrying, laughing, crying, wishing we were home, wishing we were more successful, wishing we were less introverted/extroverted, wishing we were different. We are bound to worry about things we can’t control, to be forced to interact with people we don’t get along with. We have to face struggles, to make mistakes, and then learn from what has happened. I’m excited to grow as a person during this school semester and school year, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about (and afraid of) staying on a campus where I feel very alone, very outcasted, very vulnerable.
I am fortunate enough to have incredible opportunities and experiences, including the opportunity to study at a private university that’s not too far away from my home, to work hands on at a prestigious internship, and most importantly to be a part of an amazing family. I can’t stress enough how amazing my family is. I love my mom, dad, sisters, grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles, friends, and of course my DOGS so much. I am so lucky to have people in my life who care about me and love me, who support me and are always there for me.
I return home every weekend and I look forward to that. Thursday can’t get here any quicker….I hold countdowns until the day I get to leave campus and be home with my family. That doesn’t mean I’m not grateful for the opportunity I have to learn at a great university; I’m very thankful. I’m thankful that my parents provide so much for me and my sisters, that my mom is just a phone call away when I need some emotional support. I’m grateful that I can learn about writing and communications, topics I love, and still be able to live at home with my family and not dread everyday during the academic year.
So, here’s to new beginnings. Here’s to growing as a student and an individual. Here’s to making progress on the journey towards self-confidence, self-acceptance, and self-love. Here’s to junior year.